I tend not to do things by halves. I give myself a hard time because I feel like I could always be doing more. I’ve been given a lot of opportunity in my life it’s true, so sometimes I feel like things have been a bit too easy for me and if I did even more I’d have more opportunities. But that’s not entirely true. I do believe in making your own luck no matter how fortunate you may be in life. And I do work hard, all the time these days it seems. I’ve lost a lot of weight over the past year and it’s because of this. People say oh you look great. But I know that it’s not the healthiest way to lose weight, being worked down to the bone.
Being busy is a sickness these days. I’M SO BUSY. Is the mantra we hear over and over again. And yet everyone double books up their evenings, their weekends, days filled with unreturned emails, unanswered calls, because we’re all so busy. I’m certainly more productive when I’m busy, that’s true, I tend to answer all the emails I can, at least to say, I got it I’ll get back to you. But I’m also crabby, short tempered, exhausted and bleary eyed. It will get better I know. It’s the transition period we’re in right now and the tasks we are burdened with right now aren’t the most inspiring.
There hasn’t been a lot of time recently to sit back and reflect which is something I crave, I miss and cherish. I used to spend hours writing, listening to music, reading, dreaming. This is one reason this move will be so good for us. The countryside will be regenerative. Even if we are busy. We won’t be able to help it.